3 weeks and 2 days ago I left Sydney, Australia in a flurry of emotion.
The time had come to ship out and although I knew I was going upwards to great things in Cairns (further North of Australia) it was still a difficult change to process.
Sitting in the airport on route to Singapore I felt uneasy with my feelings; I moved between “having a sad” to trying to shake me into submission (by reminding myself of all the amazing times that lay ahead!).
I pretty much felt guilty for feeling down as I knew so many WOW things were in front of me.
When I arrived in Singapore it took a few days to adjust to the fact that Sydney was no longer my home.
That Singapore break (between leaving Sydney and the planned Christmas with friends in Bali) turned out to be one of the best “family times” I’ve been lucky enough to have during my 5 years away from the UK.
My little sisters are brilliant, my Mum never changes and always has a positive word on absolutely everything and my Stepdad keeps the girls going, as the leader of the pack.
He also cooks an amazing (early) Christmas dinner – thank you Ben!
Let’s not forget how much fun it was spending time with our dogs too!
… So while I arrived in Singapore a lil’ bit broken from my big goodbye to my Sydney life, I left Singers in high spirits.
I felt rested and happy after the fun few days with my family. We went to Universal Studios on the final night and it was nothing short of magical – I highly recommend it! If you ever get the chance to go, please do!
As I left Singers for Bali my excitement for the couple of weeks ahead started building.
One of my best friends, Helen, was due to meet me in Kuta but ended up arriving a day later than planned due to the drone security issues at Gatwick Airport.
The night of Helen’s arrival I met a couple of heroes who ended up changing the course of our holiday in the best possible way.
Bali deserves a seperate blog because I honestly believe I owe so much to this trip.
For now I just want to say; Bali was one of the best experiences of my entire 33 years on this planet!
I appreciate I am known for having “the best day ever” a lot of the time but this was different.
Like nothing I can compare before – it was living a new way of life on so many levels. I bloody loved every second!
As I write this I am sat in an Air B&B in Cairns with a couple of days exploring behind me.
I start my new job with AJ HACKETT Cairns on Monday. I signed the paperwork for my new apartment yesterday.
Also; yesterday my visa transfer cleared so I am fully OK (and 110% legal!) to crack on with work … basically, everything has worked out for me, so far, since I left Sydney.
Lil’ Lara Lain wasn’t meant to be in Sydney after all! Although I fought against it at first it’s funny how life works out – even if you have doubts you have to go with what you know deep down is “right” in the end.
I knew Cairns was the right life choice and I am so glad I am here. I feel at peace and ready for what’s to come! 🤩
As I write I have no “missing” feelings or “sadness” for the life I left behind – I am just grateful I have the friends, the memories and am super excited about the future for so many reasons.
If you’ve been following me during 2018 (or perhaps even before then) you’ll know that I’ve been through the ringer in various ways and I’ve always tried to look for the positive (or at the very least, the life lesson!) in every situation … 👏
I feel like for every time I have struggled life has been keeping a watchful eye on me. I went through various “tests” and came out smiling … these last few weeks prove it’s now time to enjoy the upside after the downs.
After the rain comes the sun (and the majestic rainbow!) n’ all that hey! 😉
If you take anything from what I share; please let one thing be this – stay positive and do your best to love your life no matter what. You never know what (or who!) is around the corner. 💫
Bali and Cairns will have their own blogs to come, also I have drafted a “Sydney in review” piece which I will share in good time.
For now – thank you for reading. Hope you had a great Christmas and New Year and here’s to a positive 2019!
You have the whole year ahead to get stuck in and make it your own – go for it, I know I will be! 🙌