Taking positive steps after a meltdown | Larasstory archives, April 2017


* This was written in April 2017 and re-published in April 2020.
Hello, Happy Sunday!

I’ve written this post about ten times and not been happy with it; so what follows is the simple facts of what’s happened since Tuesday …
Tuesday evening: I went for a walk after work then came home and had a massive cry for no apparent reason. It was the big heaves, when you “can’t breathe” kinda crying.
It came out of nowhere but I soon realised it was because I felt “lost”, for want of a better word.
Great stuff.
I spoke to my mum and best friend back home and realised that 1. Whatever my underlying problem was, it wasn’t the end of the my/ the world 2. I would work it out.


Wednesday: I woke up with a fresh resolve. Wherever those tears had come from, they had needed to be shed. Crying like that made me think “ENOUGH of this – I need to do something!”.
It was time to step things up a gear. To do more.
I realised that although I was currently living a life of doing good things: running, working, writing – I didn’t have any big goals beyond saving a bit of money over winter and running the Sydney half marathon.
I wasn’t pushing myself enough. I didn’t have anything else lined up to “make me proud of me”.


This week I attempted to pick myself back up with: 

– A 14km run to test my fitness (nailed it!).

– Ignoring any idea of spending my weekend alone (I went to a friends birthday and had a great arvo with faces familiar and new).

– Opening doors with new friends (I met a girl who I’d previously only spoken to through my blog and Instagram. She’s a London girl too, we have things in common and now have plans for next weekend and beyond!).

– Investigating ways to spend my free time giving back to other people, we’re talking charity volunteering … I’m waiting to hear back on something I am really interested in getting involved in. Hopefully more on this to come soon!.

– The biggie: I am 99% sure I’m going to sign up the Sydney Maraton (which takes place in September). Planning to see how I fair with the half marathon in a few weeks and if I finish in good form I’ll sign up and get my intense training hat on.


All in all, this week has been one of digging deep and working on turning things around further.

It’s a work in progress to get back to what you regard is your “normal” when you don’t feel 100% but without the determination to make a change, you’re going to remain on the same track – or possibly dive head first down a more destructive one.

So yeah, that’s it!

This week I had a melt down and made some beneficial steps forward.

I’m genuinely excited about the charity work and the possibility of the Sydney marathon – let’s see what happens!

Thank You for reading.

@LaraLain

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2 Comments

  1. Abigail
    May 9, 2017 / 2:16 pm

    I don’t think I could relate to this post anymore if I tired! A pleasure to read as always 🤗

    • May 11, 2017 / 7:12 pm

      Thanks for reading – you know you’re not the only one ✌️ x

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